Psychological incest, smutty character studies, whump (hurt/comfort or hurt/no comfort), rich plot, age gap, woman in charge, pathetic men, Munchausen Syndrome/Munchausen Syndrome by Proxy, enemies to lovers, grooming, unfixed roles/switching, power imbalance, manipulation, coercion, brother/sister incest, brother/brother incest, poisoning, kidnapping, Stockholm/Lima Syndrome, Freudian relationships, angst unreliable narrator, sickfics, sick men, redemption, corruption, guilt, doomed siblings, eldritch horror, cozy horror, dangerous/destructive levels of devotion, psychological bullshittery, obsession, emotional repression.
Dave Strider/Rose Lalonde (Homestuck)
Sasori/Deidara (Naruto)
Reigen Arataka/Kageyama Shigeo (Mob Psycho 100)
Senju Hashirama/Senju Tobirama (Naruto)
Manjoume Jun/Yuki Judai (Yu-Gi-Oh GX)
L/Near (Death Note)
I really wanted to write this somewhere where I have the illusion of readers, so what better place than my shiny new webpage for my ships that will never see the light of day? I'll wait. Yeah, that's what I thought. SO! I've been into sick men for as long as I can remember. I was an extremely early bloomer masturbation wise (think 3-4 years old. This was sooo good for my sexuality) and some of my earliest memories of things that turned me on (tm) were sick men. No idea why/where this came from, other than the link between attraction and revulsion. Some of my earliest memories include watching The Hobbit, seeing all these bleeding men in varying states of distress, and getting butterflies. Not sickness, per say, but looking back I think about this one a bit. Some examples of how this impacted my life included when my classmates would get sent home during the winter for various colds and flus and I would shyly ask for all the details before I knew what was/wasn't okay. I also remember getting off like CRAZY to Zuko's morality crisis/fever in ATLA, and then when I rewatched it I was like. Well this ain't shit. I had hyped his illness up to a multi-episode scene where he was lying in bed intensely feverish and on the verge of death, tossing and turning, but nope! He was just. Sort of sick, mostly metaphorically. What a bummer.
When I read Percy Jackson, I was insanely attracted to Nico, but only after he was trapped in the death urn and came out of it pale as fuck and skinny.
Antiviral was a recent fascination of mine. Watching this little redheaded guy fumbling around in the throes of deadly illness was so mentally stimulating that I couldn't even finish the movie, I just kept bluescreening out. It should also be noted that I am/was a huge germophobe? So? I guess that I'm extremely disgusted and attracted to the concept of illness, though I've reined myself in a bit so I'm not turned on the second that someone mentions they have a stomach bug or whatever (I used to be. It was a mess).
I didn't realize I had some sort of sick fetish(?) until this year, though it's fairly evident in hindsight. I'm not into sneezing, or vomiting (anymore. I was from ages 3-10) or like . . . anything that there's a community around. No, I'm into sickness/the passive threat of death, nowadays in an entirely fictional context (though. I can't say that I'd mind taking care of a sick partner). I need to put my twinky men in some danger, which took me an embarassingly long time to figure out. I have no idea what it says about me, but this attraction has been a part of me for as long as I can remember and, for better or for worse, it's a part of my sexuality. Lame-ass fetish if you ask me. I'm going to sleep now.